Broken Hearts

Broken hearts hurt like hell...but you know what? They do heal! Time and understanding is what I need.

I have the best family in world! They are very understanding and loving...now I just need the time. I wish there was a way to speed it up, but there isn't.

I do want to thank him for showing me that I am capable of loving someone outside my family unconditionally. And for showing me what I really want in a relationship and mate!

I learned a lot from him about me!

P.S. That was the last time that I will speak of him every!

Season Pass Holder Night

Well, tonight is the big night. It will most definately be epic!! We are doing our Season Pass Holder Night in conjunction with the Library's Summer Reading Club Kick Off! Yesterday around 4 Jeannie sent out an email - 485 kids have signed up! So far they are having a record year!

Each kid will recieve an Invitation to tonight along with their families! Even is each kid on brought one parent - we are way over our max capacity at the pool and that doesn't even take into consideration my Season Pass Holders! I have a feeling that they are going to be a little pissed!!

Summer

Summer is fast approaching! I'm on tract for getting the pools open but I still fell like I'm months behind! I hate this feeling this way!

I've already had to let a kid go from my employment! But then I hired three more people to fill his place!!

I'm beginning to feel anxious. So many reasons why!
1. Pools
2. Athletics
3. Economy
4. Craig

I feel like he doesn't want my company anymore. Like he is has found a newer model. I think I might know who it is. Last night he stayed up until 1 am playing on his iPhone and chatting with her. When I asked why he came out to see me, he responded to "hang out with you". Then why did you play on your phone and chat with somebody else the entire time you were with me. He doesn't kiss me the same why.

What has changed since Friday?

Sisters

After reading my sisters' blogs. I realized something. I have really talented siblings! They both have a gift of words and for pictures. Not to mention they both have the cutest daughters in the world!!

I love and you both!!

Someday...

It's been three days. Three days that I haven't talked to Craig. He's not a jerk, he's just not who or what I thought I getting to know. We are in two different places in our lives. Why should I fault him for that or vis versa?

I miss doing baseball orders with him. We had a system and it worked. We were a great team! I miss sitting and each playing on our own computers or iPhones. Just being in the same room with him relaxed me! I miss falling asleep and waking up next to him! I miss talking to him! I miss everything about him!

Maybe when he is ready for someone as wonderful as me, someone that would love him for all his quirts and baseball cards and is willing to help him. Maybe, I'll still be there for him! I just hope he doesn't figure it out too late!!

Sister, please don't worry about me, I'm fine. I just needed to get the words off my chest! Only you read this!!

P90x

Tomorrow starts the first day of P90x! I don't know if I can do this, but Craig and I are going to do it together! He's a determined person; like my sister; when he sets his mind on something, he isn't going to quite. So with each of us motivating the other, I think I can do it!!

Just need to vent

I'm sure it's just me, but I feel that he is ready to move onto another court. I know he has said from day one that he wasn't looking for a serious relationship and that he wanted to keep his options open. But I really thought we had something special.