There is something wrong with me!

Don't worry, I'm not sick or anything. There is a guy that is obvious that he likes me; but I don't feel anything for him at all. He's sweet, kind, funny. But what's wrong with him. Well for starters he's married. Granted he and his wife are separated and he's contacted a divorce lawyer. But the fact of the matter is that he is still married. He sent me a text today saying that he wanted to spend more time and do more things with me. He is fun to be around but I can't spend too much time around him before I go a bit crazy. He uses double negatives. I can't stand those. I guess I just might be a relationship snob. I don't want a man that is uneducated or at least sounds like he is.

Is that wrong?

Bob Jones

My family lost a great man this weekend. My grandfather. Robert Tyre Jones. He was a caring, loving, generous, kind hearted man! This family was truly blessed to have come from him!

After my parents divorced and mom and I had to live in that flea bag apartment. Memaw and Papaw had me live with them. I remember waking up and "hiding" under the kitchen table while he eat his breakfast. I would sit on his foot while he was eating and not get off it while he walked to the front door towards work. When he would get home from work he would stand next to the table and I would get on his back and he would pretend that he didn't know that I was there! He would say, "Faye? Have you seen Erica? I can't find her anywhere!" I would then say, "I'm right here, Papaw!!" He would turn around like a dog chasing his tail "looking" for me!! I would then bite his ear to get his attention!! For years I thought the crease in the right ear was from me biting it over and over again!!

I miss him so much!! But I know that he is in a better place. He is playing golf with Steve and Art and Dave. Memaw and Genny are cooking for them! Grace is probably overseeing and bossing all of them!!

July - National Recreation Month!

I haven't had much time to post anything for a while. But then again, I haven't had anything to report.

Jessica got a job!! YEAH!! Ash and the girls came to visit!!! YEAH!! Barb and I did GREASE Sing-a-Long in Austin!!! YEAH!!

Work is going great! I'm starting to see some of the kids drop off this week! School is just around the corner! Wow this summer flew by pretty fast!!

I'm ready and sad to see it end!!

20 YEARS!

I wasn't going to go but a text from Nicole prompted me to get in the car at 10:20 pm and drive to Sherman to hang out with people I only have contact with through FaceBook! And you know what? I had a good time!!

I wish I would have left earlier so I could have visited with some other people that were there. Oh well, they say that we will be having another reunion in 5 years! Maybe I'll go to that one!!

Hello Everybody (the two of you!)

I just wanted to check in and say hello! It's busy at the pool! We have more heads this year so far! Great numbers means I look good!! Next week we have a camp coming for the day - 300 kids!! WOW! That is going to make the deposit really phat!!

Jason from QT was calling and texting, but as quickly as he started he stopped! He's pretty weird! Last week he felt it necessary to tell me that he was "throwing curve balls". I had no idea what that meant. He proceeded to tell me it meant going #2! Mind you...I have had an actual conversation with this person a total of 6 times! He barely knows me and he tells me that. Oh, and he asked if I had large nipples! I told him that was inappropriate. He asked if he offended me. I said no, but he doesn't know me and it's an inappropriate question to ask.

I had gone a date a few weeks ago with this guy that seemed really nice. He works as a Director of Economic Development for a City. A guy that works in the same environment as me!! Well, he's supper busy. We had made plans to possibly do something this past weekend. I got a text from him Saturday morning saying he would call/text later in the day. Well; it's Tuesday! I'm going to write him off as well!!

I'm now officially sworn off on-line dating! This is the 5th time I've tried and the 5th time I've failed at finding someone. I'll just wait for Mr. Right to find me! I'm tired of trying to find him!! But if you are reading this! I'm waiting!!

Summer Week 2

Okay; so I think I have a really fantastic staff this summer. They mesh, they have fun while still being professional. They are a great group of kids!

Well, today I got an email from a lady complaining that one of my staff was DANCING between stands and that was EXTREMELY inappropriate! REALLY?!? You are going to complain that my staff is having a good time and trying to make the visits for our patron more enjoyable as well!!

Earlier this week we had a parent complain about our swim lesson program starting a week after HEB got out of school! All the other school districts got out a week later than we did!! REALLY! He was mad and wanted to know who he could talk to about this and that it was unacceptable!!

Oh, well! I only have 11 more weeks until the kids go back to school!! But who's counting?

Broken Hearts

Broken hearts hurt like hell...but you know what? They do heal! Time and understanding is what I need.

I have the best family in world! They are very understanding and loving...now I just need the time. I wish there was a way to speed it up, but there isn't.

I do want to thank him for showing me that I am capable of loving someone outside my family unconditionally. And for showing me what I really want in a relationship and mate!

I learned a lot from him about me!

P.S. That was the last time that I will speak of him every!

Season Pass Holder Night

Well, tonight is the big night. It will most definately be epic!! We are doing our Season Pass Holder Night in conjunction with the Library's Summer Reading Club Kick Off! Yesterday around 4 Jeannie sent out an email - 485 kids have signed up! So far they are having a record year!

Each kid will recieve an Invitation to tonight along with their families! Even is each kid on brought one parent - we are way over our max capacity at the pool and that doesn't even take into consideration my Season Pass Holders! I have a feeling that they are going to be a little pissed!!

Summer

Summer is fast approaching! I'm on tract for getting the pools open but I still fell like I'm months behind! I hate this feeling this way!

I've already had to let a kid go from my employment! But then I hired three more people to fill his place!!

I'm beginning to feel anxious. So many reasons why!
1. Pools
2. Athletics
3. Economy
4. Craig

I feel like he doesn't want my company anymore. Like he is has found a newer model. I think I might know who it is. Last night he stayed up until 1 am playing on his iPhone and chatting with her. When I asked why he came out to see me, he responded to "hang out with you". Then why did you play on your phone and chat with somebody else the entire time you were with me. He doesn't kiss me the same why.

What has changed since Friday?

Sisters

After reading my sisters' blogs. I realized something. I have really talented siblings! They both have a gift of words and for pictures. Not to mention they both have the cutest daughters in the world!!

I love and you both!!

Someday...

It's been three days. Three days that I haven't talked to Craig. He's not a jerk, he's just not who or what I thought I getting to know. We are in two different places in our lives. Why should I fault him for that or vis versa?

I miss doing baseball orders with him. We had a system and it worked. We were a great team! I miss sitting and each playing on our own computers or iPhones. Just being in the same room with him relaxed me! I miss falling asleep and waking up next to him! I miss talking to him! I miss everything about him!

Maybe when he is ready for someone as wonderful as me, someone that would love him for all his quirts and baseball cards and is willing to help him. Maybe, I'll still be there for him! I just hope he doesn't figure it out too late!!

Sister, please don't worry about me, I'm fine. I just needed to get the words off my chest! Only you read this!!

P90x

Tomorrow starts the first day of P90x! I don't know if I can do this, but Craig and I are going to do it together! He's a determined person; like my sister; when he sets his mind on something, he isn't going to quite. So with each of us motivating the other, I think I can do it!!

Just need to vent

I'm sure it's just me, but I feel that he is ready to move onto another court. I know he has said from day one that he wasn't looking for a serious relationship and that he wanted to keep his options open. But I really thought we had something special.

Dang!

Things are good with Craig! I enjoy being with him! I still like talking on the phone with him. We went on a double date with my sister and brother-in-law! Much fun! My brother-in-law really liked him. My sister really likes him. Edgar really likes him! I really like him!

But that isn't really what today is about. I just wanted to you a heads up.

Today I had my first TAAF Swim meeting at the Commish! Yeah, it didn't go that well! It went longer than it needed to and I sort of lost track of the agenda. It's hard to go by an agenda that you didn't put together nor do you really know what some of the content is about! Next one will be better. God, I hope I don't have to turn in the minutes as well! I didn't take very good notes! I think that I might need to have some one appointed to Co-Commish!

One Week!

The last two weekends I have spent with Craig!! We have so much fun together! We laugh and talk for hours! I get giddy with I think of him! I smile each time I think of him! I'm excited without being anxious! I don't want to think long term but I also don't want to think about it ending next week. This ride is so much fun. And not a lot of work! He makes my heart skip a beat!

He asked me yesterday what it was that won me over after 20 years...Well here it is: I think I've always known that I deserved a nice guy. I deserve someone that I can talk to about stuff without feeling pressured or reserved. He allows me to be myself and still likes me for it. When I start to act a little crazy, he calms me down. He's funny, smart, big kid at heart. He likes kids, would like to have some one day but doesn't feel like he HAS to have kids to be complete. He's a great guy with a good head on his shoulders, a caring heart, giving, loyal, likes my family. Enjoys his family. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I get lost in. The sweetest smile.

I love the way he looks at me. I love the way he touches me. He opens the car door for me every time! He is always looking out for me. He will not let me return the favor. I want to give and give to him. But he gives and gives to me. I don't want this feeling to every go away. I'm scared to death that I will fall for him and end up getting extremely hurt!

Happy Birthday to me!!

I had the best birthday, EVER!!

Mom called me on Wednesday of last week and asked what I wanted to do for my 38th birthday. Honestly, I really didn't want to do anything!! We went back and forth on plans. And finally decided on Hank's in McKinney! That plays a key role in the rest of the story!

I got a random email on Facebook from an old high school friend on Thursday. He asked if I ever came to McKinney because he wanted to hang out and catch up on the past. We got to sending emails back and forth. I got the notion that he was no longer married. We talked on Friday for almost 5 hours. We made plans to meet up on Saturday.

Long story short...we spent Saturday & Sunday together. Talked last night for another hour and a half. P.S. I really don't like talking on the phone. But, I really like him. But I don't want to get too excited yet. He's funny, smart, financially responsible, kind, sweet, charming, loyal, loves kids. He's a giant dorky kid at heart!

I'll keep you posted on the way this plays out! If he doesn't have to work on Saturday we have plans to do something on Friday! He asked me!!

Adjusting

Edgar and I are adjusting to the loss of Elliott. He is begining to loosen up and play like a kitten! It is still hard to believe that Elliott is no longer with us. I did bring his ashes and his carrier home from the last time I visted my parents! Edgar still walks up to carries to see if Elliott is in there and needs to be let out.

I love this little guy! And we miss Elliott!

Happy New Year!

Today is January 1, 2010

Wow that is weird to type! Ten years ago we were worried that nothing would work at the stroke of midnight. All computers would suddenly stop working. Digital clocks wouldn't roll over to the new millennium properly. Twenty years ago we were thinking that we would be driving around in hovercrafts and wearing space suits!

Funny how we change the way we think about stuff!

What did I do for this New Year's Eve? I stayed home and watched episodes of Fringe! It was awesome! I didn't even watch the Ball drop in Times Square. I'm pretty boring and dull!

Here's to all of us! Happy New Year and my all your wishes and desires come true this year!