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Blah is how I've been feeling lately. Work is blah. I feel blah. Personal life is blah.

I went on two dates with a guy from eHarmony. I know sometimes it takes a while to feel connected to someone. But I wasn't feeling anything. I know I should have. I know he should be a great catch. He is full of passion for kids. He adores his dog. He is very caring and giving. But I felt absolutely nothing for this guy. He was really nice, but I wouldn't even have him as a friend to hang out with on a regular bases.

There is one guy that I can't seem to get out of my head. And I'm pretty sure he doesn't think about me that way. I think he thinks I'm a sweet girl but that about it. How do I find out what he's thinking?

Last weekend we actually slept together. I know what you are thinking...slut! But all our clothes were on. He actually asked if we could snuggle. He held me and we talked and giggled for hours. But since then...NOTHING! He sent text messages stating that he doesn't play games. I don't know how to play games with my emotions. I wear them like a shirt.

Well, my search for a counselor continues tomorrow! Maybe a professional to talk to and drugs might help me!!

I love you, Ashley!! There is no need to worry about me!