Erica and the Extras!

Jessica Faye

2012-02-17T17:13:00.001-06:00

I love you so much but you makes me want to pull my hair out!

The Cuteness

2012-02-17T12:08:00.001-06:00

Last night while Ella was swinging in her swing; she kept spitting out her pacey and then putting it back in her mouth. All by herself!!

Well she spit it out one last time and it fell almost to her stomach. Dan bet her she couldn't get it back in her mouth!!

Sure enough, she got it in her mouth and Daddy paid up!!

Never bet against The Cuteness!!

Happy Valentine's Day

2012-02-15T02:24:00.001-06:00

A few of my favorite things

2012-02-07T02:39:00.001-06:00

My daughter & husband
My family - entire blended family
Ella falling asleep on my chest
Ella's sweet smile
My husband's sweet kisses
The joy of being a wife and mother
My 10 year old cat - Edgar
Body pillows
Watching Ella sleep
Listening to Ella suck on her finger
The sound of my little girls' laughter especially when they are all together
Being Ella's mommy
Being Danny's wife
Watching Ella sleep
My "conversations" with Ella
Being greeted at the door by Turdy
Baby yawns
Toothless grins

Super Bowl Sunday

2012-02-05T19:53:00.001-06:00

We cleaned out the DVR. Took a nap. Dan went to the grocery store. We recorded the game so we could fast forward to the commercials!

Funny thing is that most of the commercials are YouTube!!

The Help

2012-02-01T01:22:00.001-06:00

Dan and I just finished watching THE HELP. That movie/book should be required viewing/reading by every person!!

You is kind...
You is smart...
You is important...

Every child should be told this on a daily bases. But one more phase should be added.

You is loved!

Sick Baby :(

2012-01-31T10:07:00.000-06:00

My sweet little girl is not feeling well this morning! I feel so bad for her. But the funny thing is that she doesn't act like she doesn't feel well. She is still smiling and cooing. But she is sleeping so much, and she is spitting up like a geyser and several times!

She changed clothes this morning three times!! I thought at first she just didn't want to wear the outfits that I was putting her in! But when I changed the third outfit, it hit me that she might be sick!

I hope you get to feeling better soon, Baby Girl; Mommy and Daddy love you very much!!

40! Oh, Lordy!!

2012-01-27T05:11:00.001-06:00

Happy Birthday to me!! Bye to my 30's and Helllloooo 40's!

Two Months!!

2012-01-14T21:26:00.001-06:00

Vitals:
10 lbs
21"

She has a Strawberry birthmark on her right check. Dr. Olivo says that it is pretty common and should be gone before she turns one!

Ella has discovered her hands and uses them as a replacement for a pacie! It's so funny to watch her search for her thumb; she sucks all around but rarely finds it. But when she does!! The look is priceless!

Since introducing her to her pacie her eating patterns have changed.

Sleep Over

2012-01-09T00:04:00.001-06:00

Ella and I had a sleep over at Nanny & Pops' house on Saturday.

I met Mom & Dad in Fairview along with Sarah, Brian and the girls. We had lunch and I then hung out with Keri for a bit. Then Bug and I headed to Sherman to help mom paint her house!!

Well Saturday was pretty much a bust in the painting department!! But we did get the shutters sorted and placed in their corresponding rooms!!

Ann and Wally came over for pizza and to finally meet Ella!! Wally and Ella were both a little unsure of each other!! Ann on the other hand thought she was beautiful! Of corse I agreed!!

This morning Ella and Mom read the paper together while mom enjoyed her coffee. Then they took a short nap!!

They also hung out while I worked on the Master Bath (FINALLY- got some painting done).

All and all it was. Great weekend, but Daddy sure did miss his girls!!

Tummy Time!!

2012-01-02T21:05:00.001-06:00

I don't know if it's that he actually likes her or he is just trying to get some attention from Mommy, but every time Ella does Tummy Time he has to jump into the Boppy after her!!

Each day that she practices the higher up she can hold her head and the longer she can hold it up!!

I can't believe that almost two months ago, Danny & I brought into this work this wonderful gift!! She has brought so much joy and happiness into our lives. We thought we were complete with each other. It's amazing how wrong we were until she came along!!

Ella - I tell you this every day of your life and I will tell you for every day of the rest of mine!

New Year Eve!

2011-12-31T23:41:00.001-06:00

Happy New Year!! Here is to a prosperous 2012!!

Bathtime!!

2011-12-30T22:18:00.001-06:00

Thank you, Aunt Ashley!! I love my frog!!

Better!

2011-12-30T20:09:00.001-06:00

She did much better today!!

Two hour nap in her crib and actually picked her head up!!

A day of firsts!

2011-12-29T21:13:00.002-06:00

Ella had her first "serious" session of Tummy Time. She hated it!!

After her "work out" she had a bottle and fell asleep. I thought it would be a good time to "try out" her crib! That nap lasted about an hour!!

We'll try again tomorrow!! On both counts!!

"I don't want to do this anymore!!"

I earned this nap!

Shopping

2011-12-16T22:47:00.000-06:00

I love taking Ella out in public! Everybody wants to look at her. Well she is pretty darn cute. But every woman older than me has to give me advise on how to raise her!!

I was standing in line at Wal-Mart tonight and the lady in front of me looked at Ella and asked if she was a boy or a girl. Granted, she was dressed in a baby blue sleeper! Not bothered by that! When I told her that the baby was a girl, the woman did tell me that she was beautiful!! Again, I already knew that! She then turned back around and told me never let strangers touch her because there were germs around! REALLY?!?!!!

I know these ladies mean well, they just crack me up. Do they honestly think that every woman that has a baby will put their babies in danger if they don't step in and give advise? I really hope when I get older I don't become one of them!!

Ella, if your Mommy starts acting like them, you have the authority to slap me!!

1 Month

2011-12-10T05:18:00.001-06:00

Ella is one month old today!! It's hard to believe that four weeks have already passed.

She has changed so much in these few weeks. She started off not gaining weight like her doctor said she should Now I think I need to out her on a Baby Diet!! Just kidding!!

She's a pretty good sleeper. She usually sleeps about 3 hours at a time. Some nights she gives me 4 hours!!

We started breast feeding at birth bit when she wasn't gaining weight Dr. Olivio suggested supplementing formula to help her gain weight. She loved the instant gratification that the bottle gave her. Each time I would try to breast feed she would fight me at it. Each time was getting worse and worse; to where I was in tears I was getting so frustrated. So now I pump and store and she gets a bottle. We are both happy!!

Right now, Ella pretty much just eats, sleeps, and poops. But she does like to ride in the car to visit people. She doesn't seem to be anxious meeting new people. She loves just "looking" around at her surroundings. I think she'll be a People Watcher like her Mommy!!

She loves her dog and he lives her!! I've changed his name to Bubba T. I don't think Turd is an appropriate name for a child to call a dog!! Edgar is still on the fence with Ella. He has made strides to actually be in the same room as her now!!

We go to the doctor on Tuesday. I'll report then on her growth.

Ella, Mommy & Daddy love you so much and are very thankful that you chose us to be your parents!! I enjoy every day with you and can't wait to see what kind of women you grow to become!! Happy 1st Month!! I love you, Bug!!

Santa

2011-12-03T14:54:00.002-06:00

Bedford had their Annual Holiday Tree Lighting! We didn't make it to the actual lighting of the tree. But we did make the perfect timing to stand in line to get our picture taken with & Mrs. Clause!! Danny was worried that she would wake up and start crying! As you can see she was perfect!!

Thanksgiving!

2011-11-24T23:39:00.000-06:00

Ella did some traveling today!! Longest she's been in the car since birth!!

We had our first stop in Plano and had lunch with my family!! Cousin Sydney sure does love having a brand new baby cousin!! It's like having a living doll!! Ella got to also meet her cousins Jessica and Matthew!

I have never had to split my time between families before! My family was a bit surprised when we had to leave to make the trek to Krum to have dimmer with Dan's family!!

We did have to cut one family dinner out because we were supposed to eat an early dinner and then go to the hospital to visit Mamaw Abbie. She had been admitted into the hospital the day before. But when we got out there nobody was there!! There was a miscommunication we were to go to the hospital then eat. I didn't want to get Ella back out and take her to a place with sick people so we stayed at the house!!

After all the visiting she did, Ella was a great baby all day long!!

Happy Turkey Day, Bug! Daddy and I love you so much and are very thankful to have you in our lives!!

Ella Faith

2011-11-11T17:16:00.003-06:00

Ella Faith Guest

November 10, 2011
6:08 PM

6 lbs, 4 oz 19" long

Hospital

2011-11-10T23:03:00.071-06:00

I had a doctor's appointment on Monday, November 7 with Dr. Vallery. She informed me that it was time! She didn't want me to go any further with my pregnancy!! I was going to meet my daughter this week! We were going to induce Thursday morning. After she explained what the procedure was and what I was to expect.

I was okay with everything until I got in the car and called Danny. I let him know that it was going to be this week and I just cried! THIS WAS REALLY HAPPENING!! I really was going to bring a new person into this world!!

We arrived at the hospital on Wednesday, November 9 around 9:00 PM. I was induced on Thursday morning around 7 AM. Dr. Vallery came in around 8 AM to check on my progress. After breaking my water, Dr. V informed me that my uterus was talked behind my pelvis. She said that she has seen women delivered with the same condition. Few, but she has seen it done! I was dilated to about 1.5 cm and 75% effaced.

Dr. V came back around 12:30 PM. She checked me again, my uterus has come out from behind my pelvis some and I was now dilated to 2 cm and 80% effaced. She removed one of the sensors that was on my stomach to detect my contractions and put me on one that would measure my contractions from inside. She said if they were strong enough, they would help with the dilation and help bring her down.

I had some GREAT contractions!! Mom, Dan, and I watched the monitor and I knew that I was at least dilate to a 4 or 5 cm with the strength of contractions that I was having! Boy was I WRONG!! I had only dilated to 2.5 cm! We could have waited to see if I was going to dilate any further, but who knew how long that was going to take!

After discussing it with Dr. Vallery, Dan and I decided we should go ahead and do a C-Section. When we made the decision to go ahead with it, we knew it would be a matter of minutes before we could meet our bundle of joy! Sure enough, we got into surgery 20 mins later and at 6:08 PM, Ella Faith made her grand entrance into the world!!

Daddy and Mommy Getting ready for Ella's arrival!!

Mommy is so happy to have her little girl arrive!!

Daddy taking Ella to the Nursery to get checked over and to get her first round of shots!

Almost Here!!

2011-11-08T17:29:00.000-06:00

I met with Dr Vallery yesterday. The day has been set. I will be checking into Labor & Delivery on Wednesday at 8:00 PM!! I will be induced for delivery on Thursday!!

Ella Faith Guest will soon be here!! She could be here as early as Thursday afternoon or even here on Friday. I know there are quite a few people that are hoping for Friday (11-11-11)!! The luckiest day!! I don't care what day she gets here, I just want to meet her!! I want to love and kiss on her!!

I can't wait to meet my Little Princess!!

Ella, I want you to know, that Daddy and I feel very lucky that you have chosen us to be your parents!! And we can't wait to meet you!!

Last Weekend?

2011-11-06T16:38:00.000-06:00

Danny & I were enjoying our Traditional Sunday ritual. He makes breakfast and we eat it in bed and then snuggle while we catch up on the weeks shows that are on the DVR and then watch Texas Country Reporter.

While watching TCR - he turned to me and said, "This could be the last weekend that it's just the two of us!" WOW!! I hadn't really thought of it that way. After she is born we will no longer just be the "two of us". We will be a FAMILY!!

We will be Mommy, Daddy & Baby!!

We both know that this weekend is not the end of the world, but the begining of our life!! Our new life! A life we both never concieved would ever happen for either one of us!!

Danny, Thank you so much for coming into my life! I love you more and more everyday!! And I know you will make a wonderful father to our Ella and other children in the future!! I can't wait to see where this journey will lead us!! And here is to our LAST WEEKEND AS THE TWO OF US!!

Food Cooking Day!

2011-11-05T19:40:00.000-05:00

We gathered today at Sarah's house to partake in a family tradition. Food Cooking Day! It's a day where the Mom-to-Be chooses 4-6 dishes that are to be cooked and frozen by the other family members so the new parents have less to worry about when they get home from the hospital. Usually the Mom-to-Be also helps.

Not this time!! I got there a bit late and Mom, Sarah, Shelley and Liz had already gotten started on prepping all the food supplies to be divided up amongst the recipes. So I had a Tea Party with a Naked Jay Bird and a Super Friend Soccer Player! YEP!! I think I had the most fun!!

Dan & I have several days worth of dinners prepared by these AWESOME ladies! I just hope Dan likes the food as much as I do!!

I wish I had taken my camera to get pictures of the food that was being prepared and of my Tea Party Attendees!! But atlas I did not!! Oh, well!!!

New Baby!!

2011-11-03T19:46:00.000-05:00

I would like to introduce the newest addition to my family!! My niece #7!! Roxanne Jolee LeGere!! She was born today, November 3, 2011 at 4:40 AM!! She came in at a whopping 7 lbs, 10 oz. As soon as I get pictures of Baby Sister with her big sisters, I'll post them!!

Dang, is she cute or what?!? But I've noticed that my sister and brother-in-law produce cookie cutter kids!! All three looked exactly a like when they came out!! No denying who they belong too!!

Much love to my sister, Barbara and b-i-l, Blaine!!! Here is to a job well done!! Can't wait to meet her in person and to introduce you guys to your niece when she arrives!!

News on the Baby Front

2011-10-26T18:36:00.000-05:00

I was placed on bed rest yesterday during my weekly appointment. My first reaction was that I was just slapped in the face. That I've done something wrong. The more I thought about it, the better I felt about it. My blood pressure is getting too high for me to continue to work and carry Ella safely. So at home I'll stay!

I did ask if this means that we would be pushing up her delivery date, Dr. Vallery said that we were going to try to 38 weeks, but more than likely she would be inducing at 37 weeks! So there is a good chance that she will be born on 11-11-11!!

I'll keep you guys posted!

More pictures of Ella's Room!

2011-10-23T20:35:00.000-05:00

A closet full of clothes. And there are more at Nanny's house!! Dang, this child dresses better than Mommy and Daddy!!

The cube bins also are stuffed with Onesies and PJ's!! She also already has a good library of books happening!! Daddy said he would hang her curtain rod this week for me!

I feel like I need to add something under the E. This wall looks a little bare!

PERFECT!!!

Just a few of her many toys! I need a few over the door hooks to hang her Diaper Bag and Baby Bjorn

I don't know if you noticed or not, but there are three more boxes of diapers in the closet! I also have two more boxes on my desk at work!! The first shelf has a box behind the three bags of diapers. On the second shelf, the bags of diapers are stacked two or three deep and at least two boxes of diapers!! I think we have enough to last us about three weeks?

UMMMMM

2011-10-21T19:35:00.000-05:00

So where do I start with this? My biological father and I haven't always been in contact with each other. Actually the last time I saw him, it was Christmas of 1977! Then in the Fall of 2003 I get a call on my answering machine out of the blue from him!! REALLY?!?!? 26 years later I get a phone call from him? But the funny thing was, I wasn't upset. I had been trying to find him for several years. I had given up all hope on finding him when he called.

But after that it seemed to all go to hell! After all the years of wondering, I was put into a position that I had to be the one that reached out and made contact. I would ask questions. I would give information. Once I was asked to fly to Fiji to visit. Carole and Mark had won a trip to visit. Carole's kids didn't live that far from. I looked up ticket prices and it was going to cost me over $1,000.00 just for the ticket! It was less than $200 for each one of them! They could have offered to help with the cost if it meant that much to them. I asked several time when they were coming to the states to visit. Never got an answer. Did they not understand that driving is a lot cheaper than flying? If they were already planned to visit, then they weren't going out of their way to pay for a cost they were already going to spend.

Well, I could go on, but that isn't what this is about. I decided to clean out an email box that I don't check on all that much. Well, in doing so, I found that I had 4 emails from Carole. The first one had me a bit confused. The second one was written two months later. It was filled with a bit of vinegar and anger. But I figured out what it was about. My biological father had passed away. The third and forth emails were filled with hate and anger. But understandable, she thought I had totally dismissed her emails without a care or concern for her or for my father.

I do care, I was thrown for a loop when I received those emails. The way I see it, Mark told her that he couldn't contact me because it would be interfering with me life. But if I wanted to be a part of theirs then I needed to step it up. I'm sorry; I may be an adult but in this situation I am still the child. He walked out of my life, not the other way around. He did extend a hand to me but again, it wasn't my responsibility to keep feeding information and not get any in return!

So how do I feel about all this? To be honest...I don't know. I'm sad, heart broken, relieved, disgusted, void of feeling, over run with feeling. I feel everything and nothing at the same time!!

I'm sorry that we never had the type of relationship that you wanted us to have. That I wanted us to have.

Whew!!

2011-10-09T23:50:00.000-05:00

Ella had her second Baby Shower yesterday! And boy did she clean up!! I took Dan's Suburban to Sherman. And I'm so glad that I did!! My car would have been dragging the ground!! The car was FILLED with new loot for the small child!!

After spending the first part of the day snuggled in bed with Dan (it was cold and rainy this morning!) We got up and went to the grocery store and then we started to unload the car with the groceries and gifts! It took us three trips each and we looked at each other and said we could come back later for the rest!

While Dan put away the groceries and started dinner, I started on putting away gifts. In doing so, I also had an opportunity to straighten Ella's room! Most of her clothes are put away or hung up! I don't have enough bins for her clothes!! And that's not counting the clothes that she got yesterday or the stuff that she will get next week when we go to her last shower at Aunt Leigh's!

After finishing up her room, I had to stop and look around; she has taken over EVERY room in this apartment!! How does something so small and helpless, take up so much space? And how does someone that isn't even here yet, allow you to feel so much love?

Our Fried Adventure!

2011-10-03T10:07:00.002-05:00

After discussing it for what seems like forever! Dan agreed to ride the TRE and DART to the State Fair. He's never taken public transportation beside riding the bus in Jr High!! He doesn't like having the rely on a set schedule and it not being a little more flexible!!

We did get off to a bad start on the TRE! There was a family with two small boys (18 m and about 2 yrs). Mom and Dad must have thought it was going to be a good idea to ride the train with them missing their naps! The youngest cried almost the entire time we were on the train!! They even got off and transfer ed to the DART with us!! We waited until the family boarded a car and we got on another!! Hee Hee!!! But once we changed cars at the transfer the ride was perfect!! And the ride home was fun as well! We couldn't have timed it better!!

Thanks, Baby for taking a leap of faith and riding the TRE with me!!

Let our Fried Adventure begin!!

You HAVE to have your Fletcher's CornyDog!!

Then we tried Fried Bubble Gum! Just thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach!!

Fried Coke!! So good we went back for seconds!!

We also had Fried S'mores!! OMG!! Those were good!! Another favorite was Fried Butter!! If you are going to try the Fried Feast, I would suggest eating the Fried Coke last!! It expands in your belly!!

We had such a great day at the Fair! We rode the TRE and DART - Being GREEN and saving GREEN!! We also rode the Ferris Wheel! All the years I've been going to the State Fair, I have never ridden the Ferris Wheel! I can check that off my bucket list!! I'm glad I got to share that with my Sweet Husband!

Here is to many more years of happiness with my Sweetie and our growing family!! I love you, Dan Guest!!

Summer is OVER!!

2011-09-20T11:32:00.002-05:00

All the kids have gone back to school. Dog Splash is over!! The pools are officially CLOSED!! Now I can slow down!!

9 more weeks until I go on Maternity Leave!! But I still have so much to do! I need to get all the Job Descriptions together. Update and organize the Aquatic Manual for the 2012 Aquatic Season. WHAT?!?!? I'm already thinking about next summer! AM I A SICK PERSON OR WHAT???!!!

For Ella I still need to organize her room. Clean out her closet (Daddy has too much clothes in there!!) Take the Prepared Birth class. Clean my car and make it presentable for my little one!

I know I will get everything done! I always do!!

Ella Faith - 29 weeks!

2011-09-14T15:56:00.004-05:00

Hi, Sweet Baby!! You are getting so big! Daddy and I can't wait to meet you and cover you with kisses and shower you with love!!

You weighed in today at the doctor at 2 lb 11 oz! Dr Vallery says you are developing just as you should!! Your heart rate sounds good and is beginning to slow down, again, you are right on target!! I LOVE hearing you heart beat!

Daddy and I are slowly getting your room finished and ready for you!! At least you have a crib to sleep in!!

Time Flies!!

2011-09-06T22:40:00.005-05:00

WOW!! Summer is almost over!! I just have my Dog Splash Day at the pool and then I'm done with the summer!!

What does that mean? It means that I don't have too much longer to meet this sweet little girl taht is growing inside me!! We have about 11.5 weeks until she arrives!!

New Room!

2011-08-28T22:45:00.002-05:00

All done!!

Full view of bed!

Help!! Daddy's trapped and can't get out!!

We are pretty excited and a little overwhelmed when we were putter her crib together!

You will be here soon, Love Bug!! Daddy & I are so excited to welcome you home!! We love you so much!! Just thinking about you puts a big smile on our faces!!!

Classes?

2011-08-09T23:37:00.003-05:00

I thought I was done with going to classes and learning! I now have to register for Birthing Classes! But I'm kind of excited!!

1. Infant Safety/CPR and Car Seat
2. Infant Basic Care
3. Prepared Child Birth
4. Labor and Delivery Tour

Will Dan & I get these classes done in time? We'll see!!

Until the next time.....

6 months!!

2011-08-06T21:28:00.002-05:00

WOW!! We are already 24 weeks!! Ella is growing and kicking up a storm!! I can't believe in a few short months, she will be here!! I can't wait!!

I got started on her registry tonight!! Damn, that was more fun than our wedding registry!!

I can't wait to decorate her room!! We are doing her room in Classic Pooh with accents of green/blue/pink!

Ella Faith, Mommy & Daddy can't wait to meet you in person!! I know you are going to be one of the sweetest girls!

Swollen Feet!

2011-08-02T20:33:00.002-05:00

WOW!! This summer has been horrible!! We are having record breaking heat waves and record breaking temperatures. We are now on day 32 in a row for 100+ temperatures! I don't know if I can much more of this heat!!

My feet have defiantly felt the pain from the heat!! They are swelling up like sausages!! Not sure if it's from the heat or being 24 weeks pregnant?!?!

20 Weeks!

2011-07-08T18:54:00.003-05:00

We are 20 weeks!! We also found out the person growing inside of me will be a little GIRL!!

The STREAK continues!! I guess the men in my family cannot produce BOYS!!

We have decided to go with the name Ella Faith Guest!!

Little Ella! I can't wait to meet you!! Daddy and I love you so much already!! You have given us a sense of LOVE that we never thought we would feel!!

My new life!

2011-06-26T08:00:00.002-05:00

Two days ago I married my Best Friend!! We had a wonderful wedding and a great reception!

Man, was the day of the wedding stressful!?!?! I'm glad that it is over, but I'm also sad that it is over! I mean, the stress of the wedding is gone but so is the family and friends that were able to attend and celebrate with us on Our Special Day!!

We didn't have a Honeymoon in the traditional sense. We just stayed in Downtown Fort Worth for the weekend and walked around Sundance Square. We went to lunch at Jake's Hamburgers and saw a movie. We went to dinner and then came back to the room and treated ourselves to another movie.

We laughed and cried all weekend. Dan and I are so happy to be able to start our lives as a family! We are very excited about Wednesday! We find out what we are having! As long as the baby is Healthy and Happy, I don't care about what gender the baby is!! I'll be happy either way!!

11 days and counting!!

2011-06-13T09:21:00.002-05:00

On June 24th, I will be come Mrs. Danny Joe Guest, Jr!! I've never been this happy in my entire life!! He makes me so happy!!

I hope to continue to make you as happy as you make me!!

The Ring!

2011-06-05T20:08:00.002-05:00

Dan finally found my ring!! I can't wait to put it on my finger and call him my husband!! I only have to wait 19 more days!

19 more days and I will be Mrs. Danny Guest, Jr!! I feel so lucky to have such a sweet kind man in my life!!

Baby Update

2011-06-03T14:15:00.001-05:00

Went to visit the doctor today! Everything is looking good!! Didn't get an updated photo of the little baby growing inside me!!

We find out the gender on June 29th!! YEAH!!

More updates as I get them!!

Baby Guest!

2011-05-22T21:37:00.001-05:00

2nd Appointment

2011-05-07T23:31:00.002-05:00

So I went in on Friday, May 6th for the second appointment with Dr. Vallery! They took my vitals, weight, blood pressure, etc. The nurse took me to the room so she could try to hear the heartbeat. She told me not to worry if we couldn't hear it with the Doppler, she said you usually have a harder time between 10-12 weeks. Well, we didn't hear it. So when Dr. V came into the room she told me we would have to hear it by "cheating"! I'm so glad we did!! I got a second ultrasound!!

I got to see how much that little peanut has grown in three and half weeks! I was truly the most amazing thing I've ever seen!! The little things was dancing!! She/He gets that from me!! She/He also waved at the "camera".

How can something so small, cause me to fall totally in love with her/him? I can't wait to meet my small little child! To see what she/he grows up to become!! I'm so ready for this adventure!!

I love you, Little One!!

Let the count down begin!

2011-04-22T18:46:00.002-05:00

We had our first pre-natal exam last week! Dan was so sweet! He sat in the lobby for about an hour and a half waiting for me to come out. He seemed a little disappointed at first thinking I was going to get to see the baby without him!!

After the physical part of the exam was over the Office Manager fetched him to come on back for the ultrasound! He was so nervous and excited! He held my hand as we got to see the tiny little peanut! But when we heard the heart beat; we both squeezed each others hands and shed a little tear of pure happiness!!

I really like our doctor, Dr. Vallery! She awesome!! She kept telling me because I "was old" that I'll have to see a Specialist for High Risk births, so far I only have to go twice!

So far this adventure has been such an amazing journey! Can't wait to see where life is going to take us and what kind of child I have! I know he/she is going to be amazing!!

WOW!!

2011-03-21T21:20:00.003-05:00

I got some really great news today (or at least it was confirmed)! I'M GOING TO BE A MOMMY!

I know; it's pretty early to be sharing with the world. I'm only 4.5 weeks along, but it was too exciting of news NOT to share! For the three of you that read this; I'll share my adventure along the way!!

Dan's family are all excited! His mom has sent him the sweetest email expressing her excitement! Today sent an e-card to us so sweet!! My family is just excited but they have some concerns that we are so excited and it being so early in the pregnancy.

Dad wants a boy! Mom wants a girl! Dan wants a boy!! I just want a healthy happy child!! What do you think?

I found him!!

2011-02-01T15:52:00.000-06:00

After many years of searching for the perfect man for me, I have finally found him!! He is wonderful!! He's cute and funny! Smart, witty! Charmning! Love family! So far all those in my family have really liked him!!

There is something wrong with me!

2010-11-14T23:03:00.002-06:00

Don't worry, I'm not sick or anything. There is a guy that is obvious that he likes me; but I don't feel anything for him at all. He's sweet, kind, funny. But what's wrong with him. Well for starters he's married. Granted he and his wife are separated and he's contacted a divorce lawyer. But the fact of the matter is that he is still married. He sent me a text today saying that he wanted to spend more time and do more things with me. He is fun to be around but I can't spend too much time around him before I go a bit crazy. He uses double negatives. I can't stand those. I guess I just might be a relationship snob. I don't want a man that is uneducated or at least sounds like he is.

Is that wrong?

Bob Jones

2010-09-26T21:30:00.003-05:00

My family lost a great man this weekend. My grandfather. Robert Tyre Jones. He was a caring, loving, generous, kind hearted man! This family was truly blessed to have come from him!

After my parents divorced and mom and I had to live in that flea bag apartment. Memaw and Papaw had me live with them. I remember waking up and "hiding" under the kitchen table while he eat his breakfast. I would sit on his foot while he was eating and not get off it while he walked to the front door towards work. When he would get home from work he would stand next to the table and I would get on his back and he would pretend that he didn't know that I was there! He would say, "Faye? Have you seen Erica? I can't find her anywhere!" I would then say, "I'm right here, Papaw!!" He would turn around like a dog chasing his tail "looking" for me!! I would then bite his ear to get his attention!! For years I thought the crease in the right ear was from me biting it over and over again!!

I miss him so much!! But I know that he is in a better place. He is playing golf with Steve and Art and Dave. Memaw and Genny are cooking for them! Grace is probably overseeing and bossing all of them!!

July - National Recreation Month!

2010-07-19T20:24:00.002-05:00

I haven't had much time to post anything for a while. But then again, I haven't had anything to report.

Jessica got a job!! YEAH!! Ash and the girls came to visit!!! YEAH!! Barb and I did GREASE Sing-a-Long in Austin!!! YEAH!!

Work is going great! I'm starting to see some of the kids drop off this week! School is just around the corner! Wow this summer flew by pretty fast!!

I'm ready and sad to see it end!!

20 YEARS!

2010-06-20T16:57:00.002-05:00

I wasn't going to go but a text from Nicole prompted me to get in the car at 10:20 pm and drive to Sherman to hang out with people I only have contact with through FaceBook! And you know what? I had a good time!!

I wish I would have left earlier so I could have visited with some other people that were there. Oh well, they say that we will be having another reunion in 5 years! Maybe I'll go to that one!!

Hello Everybody (the two of you!)

2010-06-15T20:22:00.002-05:00

I just wanted to check in and say hello! It's busy at the pool! We have more heads this year so far! Great numbers means I look good!! Next week we have a camp coming for the day - 300 kids!! WOW! That is going to make the deposit really phat!!

Jason from QT was calling and texting, but as quickly as he started he stopped! He's pretty weird! Last week he felt it necessary to tell me that he was "throwing curve balls". I had no idea what that meant. He proceeded to tell me it meant going #2! Mind you...I have had an actual conversation with this person a total of 6 times! He barely knows me and he tells me that. Oh, and he asked if I had large nipples! I told him that was inappropriate. He asked if he offended me. I said no, but he doesn't know me and it's an inappropriate question to ask.

I had gone a date a few weeks ago with this guy that seemed really nice. He works as a Director of Economic Development for a City. A guy that works in the same environment as me!! Well, he's supper busy. We had made plans to possibly do something this past weekend. I got a text from him Saturday morning saying he would call/text later in the day. Well; it's Tuesday! I'm going to write him off as well!!

I'm now officially sworn off on-line dating! This is the 5th time I've tried and the 5th time I've failed at finding someone. I'll just wait for Mr. Right to find me! I'm tired of trying to find him!! But if you are reading this! I'm waiting!!

Summer Week 2

2010-06-10T19:33:00.003-05:00

Okay; so I think I have a really fantastic staff this summer. They mesh, they have fun while still being professional. They are a great group of kids!

Well, today I got an email from a lady complaining that one of my staff was DANCING between stands and that was EXTREMELY inappropriate! REALLY?!? You are going to complain that my staff is having a good time and trying to make the visits for our patron more enjoyable as well!!

Earlier this week we had a parent complain about our swim lesson program starting a week after HEB got out of school! All the other school districts got out a week later than we did!! REALLY! He was mad and wanted to know who he could talk to about this and that it was unacceptable!!

Oh, well! I only have 11 more weeks until the kids go back to school!! But who's counting?

Broken Hearts

2010-05-22T22:13:00.003-05:00

Broken hearts hurt like hell...but you know what? They do heal! Time and understanding is what I need.

I have the best family in world! They are very understanding and loving...now I just need the time. I wish there was a way to speed it up, but there isn't.

I do want to thank him for showing me that I am capable of loving someone outside my family unconditionally. And for showing me what I really want in a relationship and mate!

I learned a lot from him about me!

P.S. That was the last time that I will speak of him every!

Season Pass Holder Night

2010-05-21T07:13:00.003-05:00

Well, tonight is the big night. It will most definately be epic!! We are doing our Season Pass Holder Night in conjunction with the Library's Summer Reading Club Kick Off! Yesterday around 4 Jeannie sent out an email - 485 kids have signed up! So far they are having a record year!

Each kid will recieve an Invitation to tonight along with their families! Even is each kid on brought one parent - we are way over our max capacity at the pool and that doesn't even take into consideration my Season Pass Holders! I have a feeling that they are going to be a little pissed!!

Summer

2010-05-16T21:26:00.002-05:00

Summer is fast approaching! I'm on tract for getting the pools open but I still fell like I'm months behind! I hate this feeling this way!

I've already had to let a kid go from my employment! But then I hired three more people to fill his place!!

I'm beginning to feel anxious. So many reasons why!
1. Pools
2. Athletics
3. Economy
4. Craig

I feel like he doesn't want my company anymore. Like he is has found a newer model. I think I might know who it is. Last night he stayed up until 1 am playing on his iPhone and chatting with her. When I asked why he came out to see me, he responded to "hang out with you". Then why did you play on your phone and chat with somebody else the entire time you were with me. He doesn't kiss me the same why.

What has changed since Friday?

Sisters

2010-04-20T20:45:00.003-05:00

After reading my sisters' blogs. I realized something. I have really talented siblings! They both have a gift of words and for pictures. Not to mention they both have the cutest daughters in the world!!

I love and you both!!

Someday...

2010-04-05T18:47:00.003-05:00

It's been three days. Three days that I haven't talked to Craig. He's not a jerk, he's just not who or what I thought I getting to know. We are in two different places in our lives. Why should I fault him for that or vis versa?

I miss doing baseball orders with him. We had a system and it worked. We were a great team! I miss sitting and each playing on our own computers or iPhones. Just being in the same room with him relaxed me! I miss falling asleep and waking up next to him! I miss talking to him! I miss everything about him!

Maybe when he is ready for someone as wonderful as me, someone that would love him for all his quirts and baseball cards and is willing to help him. Maybe, I'll still be there for him! I just hope he doesn't figure it out too late!!

Sister, please don't worry about me, I'm fine. I just needed to get the words off my chest! Only you read this!!

P90x

2010-03-31T23:12:00.003-05:00

Tomorrow starts the first day of P90x! I don't know if I can do this, but Craig and I are going to do it together! He's a determined person; like my sister; when he sets his mind on something, he isn't going to quite. So with each of us motivating the other, I think I can do it!!

Just need to vent

2010-03-09T14:24:00.003-06:00

I'm sure it's just me, but I feel that he is ready to move onto another court. I know he has said from day one that he wasn't looking for a serious relationship and that he wanted to keep his options open. But I really thought we had something special.

Dang!

2010-02-10T21:00:00.003-06:00

Things are good with Craig! I enjoy being with him! I still like talking on the phone with him. We went on a double date with my sister and brother-in-law! Much fun! My brother-in-law really liked him. My sister really likes him. Edgar really likes him! I really like him!

But that isn't really what today is about. I just wanted to you a heads up.

Today I had my first TAAF Swim meeting at the Commish! Yeah, it didn't go that well! It went longer than it needed to and I sort of lost track of the agenda. It's hard to go by an agenda that you didn't put together nor do you really know what some of the content is about! Next one will be better. God, I hope I don't have to turn in the minutes as well! I didn't take very good notes! I think that I might need to have some one appointed to Co-Commish!

One Week!

2010-02-03T15:23:00.002-06:00

The last two weekends I have spent with Craig!! We have so much fun together! We laugh and talk for hours! I get giddy with I think of him! I smile each time I think of him! I'm excited without being anxious! I don't want to think long term but I also don't want to think about it ending next week. This ride is so much fun. And not a lot of work! He makes my heart skip a beat!

He asked me yesterday what it was that won me over after 20 years...Well here it is: I think I've always known that I deserved a nice guy. I deserve someone that I can talk to about stuff without feeling pressured or reserved. He allows me to be myself and still likes me for it. When I start to act a little crazy, he calms me down. He's funny, smart, big kid at heart. He likes kids, would like to have some one day but doesn't feel like he HAS to have kids to be complete. He's a great guy with a good head on his shoulders, a caring heart, giving, loyal, likes my family. Enjoys his family. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I get lost in. The sweetest smile.

I love the way he looks at me. I love the way he touches me. He opens the car door for me every time! He is always looking out for me. He will not let me return the favor. I want to give and give to him. But he gives and gives to me. I don't want this feeling to every go away. I'm scared to death that I will fall for him and end up getting extremely hurt!

Happy Birthday to me!!

2010-01-26T23:09:00.002-06:00

I had the best birthday, EVER!!

Mom called me on Wednesday of last week and asked what I wanted to do for my 38th birthday. Honestly, I really didn't want to do anything!! We went back and forth on plans. And finally decided on Hank's in McKinney! That plays a key role in the rest of the story!

I got a random email on Facebook from an old high school friend on Thursday. He asked if I ever came to McKinney because he wanted to hang out and catch up on the past. We got to sending emails back and forth. I got the notion that he was no longer married. We talked on Friday for almost 5 hours. We made plans to meet up on Saturday.

Long story short...we spent Saturday & Sunday together. Talked last night for another hour and a half. P.S. I really don't like talking on the phone. But, I really like him. But I don't want to get too excited yet. He's funny, smart, financially responsible, kind, sweet, charming, loyal, loves kids. He's a giant dorky kid at heart!

I'll keep you posted on the way this plays out! If he doesn't have to work on Saturday we have plans to do something on Friday! He asked me!!

Adjusting

2010-01-13T00:22:00.003-06:00

Edgar and I are adjusting to the loss of Elliott. He is begining to loosen up and play like a kitten! It is still hard to believe that Elliott is no longer with us. I did bring his ashes and his carrier home from the last time I visted my parents! Edgar still walks up to carries to see if Elliott is in there and needs to be let out.

I love this little guy! And we miss Elliott!

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T04:09:00.002-06:00

Today is January 1, 2010

Wow that is weird to type! Ten years ago we were worried that nothing would work at the stroke of midnight. All computers would suddenly stop working. Digital clocks wouldn't roll over to the new millennium properly. Twenty years ago we were thinking that we would be driving around in hovercrafts and wearing space suits!

Funny how we change the way we think about stuff!

What did I do for this New Year's Eve? I stayed home and watched episodes of Fringe! It was awesome! I didn't even watch the Ball drop in Times Square. I'm pretty boring and dull!

Here's to all of us! Happy New Year and my all your wishes and desires come true this year!

RIP

2009-12-15T23:14:00.003-06:00

My baby boy; Elliott, passed away on December 13th. He is loved and missed! He had some strange autoimmune disease that was way too advanced to be treated. His little body was just too tired and it gave out!

Edgar hasn't quite gotten used to him not being around, but in a strange way is enjoying being an only cat! He has come out of his shell and is beginning to be a silly little boy! Weird; 7.5 years old and he's acting like a kitten again!

I LOVE YOU, ELLIOTT! I MISS YOU!

December is here already?

2009-12-04T21:49:00.002-06:00

It's hard to believe that December is already here! The year has just flash by!

I'm a big girl now!

2009-11-25T06:19:00.004-06:00

I bought my very first car! I have owned cars in the past, but they have all been picked out for me, financed for me, bought for me, or forced to buy. I did all the leg work, put down the down payment, financed, signed and drove off the lot all by my self!!

I'm so proud of me!

I bought a 2005 Toyota Matrix. It has 40,000 miles on it. Not bad for a car that is 5 years old! It is silver with gray interior. I have power windows, locks, brakes. I have a automatic key lock! Cruise Control! To top it off...I HAVE A SUNROOF!!

I'm pretty excited about my new car! I highly recommend purchasing through CarMax! I am a customer for life!

SISTER!!

2009-10-28T09:48:00.001-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I love you!!

ROAD TRIP!!

2009-10-26T09:51:00.002-05:00

I'm so excited!! I'm flying to Birmingham, AL next Monday to meet up with my sister, Ashley and the girls! We were going to make a road trip and surprise our parents! Thanks to Franny Jo that plan got ruined!

Mom and Dad were in GA visiting for Ell's second birthday and their last day there Mom called to check on things and Franny had escaped! Mom got upset about the dog and leaving and Dad called to make an earlier flight so Mom could get home. It was awful! Well, since Mom was so upset, Ash had to tell her about our plan just to calm her down.

The dog is safe at home (after a torturous three days) and Mom is happy to have her girls coming home!! I'm pretty excited myself!!

Just a blah kind of day

2009-10-13T22:56:00.002-05:00

I stayed home from work today. I woke with a migraine headache and thought taking aspirin and sleeping for a couple of hours would help. It didn't. My headache actually got worse. It hurt so bad that I actually threw up. I did so for about 2 hours. It sucked!

I slept until 6 pm! That part was great. I tried to eat a salad for dinner that only had lemon juice on it. I didn't think it was too heavy, but apparently it was. I think I finally have all the bile out of my system now!

Now, I'm watching a movie fave of mine: The Lake House. It's such a sweet movie. I wish to find that kind of love someday. Love that could transcend time and space.

Another Mile Stone for Erica

2009-10-01T12:17:00.003-05:00

I just signed my lease on my apartment! You may be thinking..."that's not that big of a deal"! Well, you would be right, but I haven't lived in the same place for more than a years since living in Denton when I went back to school. And even then I never lived in the same apartment for more than 14 months!

I'm very excited about this!
1. No packing!
2. No paying to have things disconnected
3. No paying deposits to have things connected
4. No memorizing a new address!
5. No moving
6. No UNpacking and cleaning up after that!!

As much as I would love to move to South Carolina to be closer to my sister! Right now is just not a good time to be making that move. I have stuff here I need to accomplish first! Then I'll think about moving to another state!

1st Year

2009-09-14T20:25:00.002-05:00

I can't believe that I made it a year with Bedford! Holy Cow!! I have stayed at a job for a year!! That hasn't happened in a while! And the best part about it is that I haven't even looked for another job. Bedford feels like I'm supposed to be here. It's weird. I didn't feel at "home" in Trophy Club or in Saginaw. But Grapevine, Allen and now Bedford feel right to me.

I did have some bumps along the way. Eric drives me nuts! I don't always see eye to eye with him. He has his own way of doing things and I have mine. Neither are wrong they are just different. I do have days that I doubt myself for staying in Recreation but I had those anyway when I was working in GV and A-Town.

I have things that I want to do different next year. Things that I want to add program wise. Let's see what the next year brings!!

Way to go, E! You made it a year!!

Life is good!

2009-08-27T16:02:00.002-05:00

My outlook on life is looking up! I have gained new confidence that I had misplaced for a while! Professional and personal lives are beginning to take shape. Where they are going....don't know. But I can't wait to see where the journey takes me!!

She's here! She's here!! She's Here!!!

2009-08-18T23:31:00.003-05:00

Cadence Emmalane Blanchard greeted us yesterday (8-17-09) at 8:13 am CT. She weighed in at 6 lbs 13.4 oz! Measured in at 19"! She is so beautiful!

And the final count down!

2009-08-16T18:02:00.002-05:00

Today is the last day that Elliette Victoria Blanchard will be an only child! She will be joined by sister Cadence Emmalane Blanchard tomorrow!!

Elliette; your world is going to change drastically! But don't worry, it will be for the better! Trust me! There is nothing better than having a little sister! I hope you and Cadence have the same relationship that you mom and I have!! She is one of my best friends in the whole world! Just because you getting a new sister; Mommy and Daddy will not love you any less than they already do!

...and continues yet another day!!

2009-08-15T13:18:00.002-05:00

Today is the last Saturday that Elliette will be an only child! Only two more days before we welcome Cadence Emmalane Blanchard to the mix! I can't wait!!

I love my girls!

and continues....

2009-08-14T22:59:00.003-05:00

Friday, August 14th is the last Friday of Elliette being an only child!!

Enjoy these last few days, Kiddo!! Aunt Erica loves you very very very much!!

...And continues yet again!

2009-08-13T23:07:00.001-05:00

Thursday, August 13th is her last Thursday as an only child!

Oh, and he's dating someone now! That explains a lot about GOT!

...and Continues

2009-08-12T18:49:00.002-05:00

Wednesday, August 12th is the last WEDNESDAY that Elliette will be an only child!!

You'll be a great sister! If you need any advice about being an older sister, you can come to me!! I have years of experience!!

The Countdown continues

2009-08-11T17:48:00.001-05:00

Today is the last Tuesday that Elliette will be an only child!!!

The count down begins!!

2009-08-10T20:35:00.001-05:00

Today is Elliette's last Monday as an only child!!

I love you, Kiddo!!

Can't Sleep

2009-08-10T00:32:00.002-05:00

I have so much information running through my brain...I'm tired but I can't get my mind to rest so I can sleep.

What is on my mind? Nothing and everything. I'm getting tired of watching these eHarmony commercials. They make it sound so easy. It's not easy.

Cook Yourself Thin #3

2009-08-09T13:04:00.001-05:00

Unconditional Love

2009-08-08T22:44:00.004-05:00

I can't get over how one can love a small person so much. If I'm feeling blue or am having a panic attack all I have to do is just look at a picture of one of my Girls! Especially Elliette Victoria! She has such a sweet spirit about her! She is such a giving person! She has such sweet soul, kind spirit and loving personality! And she's only 21.5 months old!!

I hope to one day find that same kind of love in a man and have my own children! I know my special man is out there. I know he's looking for me!

Sweeet Girl

2009-08-06T20:40:00.002-05:00

I have loved my "talks" with Elliette this week! It makes me feel good that she has wanted to talk to me. She even asked Ashley if she could talk to her Aunt Erica!!

I love you Elliette Victoria Blanchard!! I can't wait to visit you in Georgia after your Baby Sister gets here!!

So Sad!

2009-08-04T21:08:00.004-05:00

Just found out that he has a "hot date" tomorrow night! How hot can a date be on a Wednesday night? Time will tell!

Why can't I be attracted to men that I can't have? It sucks! Sad thing is that others have said that we were perfect for each other. I guess the timing is not in sync!

update: the "hot date" was with "The Guys"!

Cook Yourself Thin Tip #2

2009-08-04T19:17:00.001-05:00

Cook Yourself Thin

2009-08-03T23:05:00.001-05:00

I'm going to purchase this book and see what happens. In the mean time I'm sharing these tips and tid bits with you!

Blah Blah Blah

2009-08-02T22:14:00.002-05:00

Blah is how I've been feeling lately. Work is blah. I feel blah. Personal life is blah.

I went on two dates with a guy from eHarmony. I know sometimes it takes a while to feel connected to someone. But I wasn't feeling anything. I know I should have. I know he should be a great catch. He is full of passion for kids. He adores his dog. He is very caring and giving. But I felt absolutely nothing for this guy. He was really nice, but I wouldn't even have him as a friend to hang out with on a regular bases.

There is one guy that I can't seem to get out of my head. And I'm pretty sure he doesn't think about me that way. I think he thinks I'm a sweet girl but that about it. How do I find out what he's thinking?

Last weekend we actually slept together. I know what you are thinking...slut! But all our clothes were on. He actually asked if we could snuggle. He held me and we talked and giggled for hours. But since then...NOTHING! He sent text messages stating that he doesn't play games. I don't know how to play games with my emotions. I wear them like a shirt.

Well, my search for a counselor continues tomorrow! Maybe a professional to talk to and drugs might help me!!

I love you, Ashley!! There is no need to worry about me!

RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED!

2009-07-16T14:51:00.003-05:00

I don't know why I'm stressed out. My job is going great. Summer is more than half over. But I still am finding myself half cocked and ready to blow. I'm trying not to let other people see it but I sure can feel inside of my chest.

My anxiety is growing and growing. To top it off; I joined eHarmony about a month ago and I'm going on my first "date" tonight to meet this guy named Jimmy. He's 47 and a Special Ed teacher in Arlington. I keep telling myself today that I need to relax and stay open minded!

RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED! RELAX AND STAY OPEN MINDED!

Hope this works!!

Dane Cook in Houston

2009-06-22T21:25:00.002-05:00

WOW!! He is so hot!! And damn funny!!

When we got to the arena we found that our section was bloced off. We have to back track down the hall to this long line of people and wait to see what was going on. After waiting for about five minutes...we had our seat upgraded!! FOR FREE!! We were orginally in Section 403 and then got upgraded to Section 111!!

Dane Cook

2009-06-20T11:59:00.001-05:00

He was here in Dallas last night but I wasn't able to go. So I have tickets to see him in Houston! Keri and I are heading down there in a little bit! I'M SO EXCITED!!!

Ugh!

2009-06-13T21:23:00.001-05:00

I've been on eHarmony now for a week and it's been slow. I'm trying to be patient but it's hard!

Summer Week One!

2009-06-12T20:25:00.001-05:00

Week One of summer camps and swim lessons is over!! We only have a few bumps and bruises along the way. Nothing traumatic or too scaring!

eHarmony

2009-06-08T23:49:00.001-05:00

Ashley, you'll be proud of me! I joined eHarmony over the weekend. I'm going to try it again! I love and miss you!!!

Facebook - revisited!

2009-06-08T22:29:00.002-05:00

I know I've writen about Facebook before. But it is the greatest thing that has happened to technology! I have been in contact with old friends I haven't seen or talked you in many years! Now that I know how to contact these people some of them I have missed so much and I didn't even know it!

I got connected to my best friend from high school! I was a little nervous about calling her, but you know what? We still think the same way; just like we used to. It was like we hadn't really not been in contacted in years. We just fell right back into place!

We are making plans to hang out this week. We could have talked all night if our phones would have let us!

Darcy, I'm so excited to be back in contact with you! I've missed you!!

Happy Birthday!

2009-06-07T21:59:00.003-05:00

I had a great weekend celebrating my dad, Mary, Stacy and Caleb's birthdays out at Club Lake! After celebrating at their party; I headed out to da clubs (in sherman!) with the girls from the clinic. I have to admit I did have a really good time!!

Happy Birthday, Dad!! I love you!!

LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH

2009-06-02T20:18:00.001-05:00

Just wanted to let every body know, that LIFE is a wonderful and precious gift. So is the gift of LOVE.

Love can be a simple jester such as holding hands with a friend when they need your support. Or telling somebody that you never thought they were a "loser". Or a zerbert on the side of their face.

Love can be a big jester, such as pooring your heart out and become vunerable. This can be scary. We shouldn't run away from this kind jester.

If you love somebody; please let them know. You never know when you might get the chance later.

Laugh like no body is listening
Dance like no body is watching
Love like you have never been hurt.

LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH

A Look Inside by Jamie Nobis

2009-06-02T19:29:00.001-05:00

Jamie wrote this for me many years ago. It's funny how we have moved on from each other and gone in diffent paths. But the words he wrote had held true for a few of the loves in my life. I'm scared shitless. Maybe that is why I don't let anyone get close to me. I have a huge fear of getting hurt beyond repair.

Isn't it weird how things happen in our lives? Things that we have no control over; they just happen.
Do you ever wonder what the future holds for you? For me?
I just can't believe things have turned out the way they have!
But, one thing I can believe is it is about to get messed up - just like it always does. No matter how hard I tried in the past, things always turned out BAD.
I hope it doesn't happen again. But I can't help thinking that there is always that possibility.I just wish I knew the answer.
If you question my true feelings I can understand that. I have a problem letting people inside my head. It seems like every time I do, I end up getting screwed.
Now I just avoid the pain by not getting close to people. I want to be close to you but I'm afraid; it hurst too much in the end.
What exactly am I trying to say? I don't know.
Maybe: I love you and it scares the shit out me!